Too Busy.............

A Note from 71 Sunflower Lane…………… I’ve missed writing.  As I sat in silence this morning pondering where I am on this journey. As with electricity all wires must have a ground wire and my ground wire is writing.  Whether I share my ramblings or notes from sunflower lane……….I need to put words to paper to remove the clutter to keep my mind clear.  My mind at time is like a clothes dryer with everything tumbling around in my head.  Joan Chittister mentions that writing is contemplative prayer. 

The past two weeks has been so busy that I don’t even know when the busyness really started or how I let it happen.  It is saying ‘yes’ to everyone else……..most of you realize what I am talking about………the pleasing syndrome.  It is so easy to fall back into that habit or trap of pleasing or being snared into doing until I sit or fall down because I am so tired.  How does one stay on course?  How does one know what to accept and what to say no too?  When family is involved then I have discovered it is really difficult; however, the end result is that I pay the price for doing.

 It is so easy to let mediation go then follows exercise or prayer time along me time and time together with my husband.  Need to discover the key which unlocks the door to Balance. I feel sad and depleted and even angry.  Right at this moment I CRaVE just being.  I feel like my heart, spirit, soul is screaming for something………is that something time, silence, spiritual nourishment, time spent sitting or contemplating?  I really don’t know the answer as I write but what I do know for certain is my heart yearns for something………the very core needs to be nourished.  I have to discover what nourishment is required. 

 

This little lesson of being busy has taught me how easy other things in life can take over my spiritual time.  As I started my journey, I had realized that I was lost, then with guidance from my spiritual director, my life slowed as I slowed my mind.  My masculine traits are very strong……..so it is difficult to Balance masculine & feminine.  Stillness is the Key….for me.

The busyness has been such a wonderful teacher as I know realize that when the cravings start then it is time for me to Stop.  Cravings come in many forms from shopping, always helping others, cleaning, volunteering, trying to fix family problems and so forth.  I believe -  we each have a different craving that is ours alone to recognize and take note of where our life is headed and what we need to do about it.

I’ve finished writing for the day…….releasing the judgments, opinions, beliefs, feelings, ideas, inspirations, and designs…….no wonder I can’t think straight.

I’ve finished mediating with my basket in hand…………a concrete symbol in my hands to centre me to bring me to my Still Point.

 

Hope you can take time to find your Still Point.

Thank you for stopping by and hope you visit again.

I will be out enjoying the beautiful spring weather so will only be posting on Wednesday.

Marlene